Not as easy as I had hoped...

Well it's been 5 days since Nate transferred to Wayside in Framingham. Unfortunately the transition wasn't as smooth a I had hoped it would be. I haven't been out to see him yet myself but have talked to him on the phone which seems to always end up with him wanting to fight and hang up on me. He claims that he is having more episodes we agreed together that is is more than likely from the stress of being in a new place. The problem is that he feels that when he wakes up from his episode that the staff are all looking at him likes it's his fault and that he is bringing on the spells himself. A little bit of paranoia I think. When ever I hang  up the phone with him I can't help but think I made the wrong decision. Today I called him and he was very agitated. Nate didn't have a great visit with Dad and Jack last night so he felt the need to take it out on me today. Honestly I don't know how much longer this is going to go on and I don't know how much more I can take. When Nate decided to hang up the phone he passed it back to whom ever his person for the day is. I was obviously upset and apologized to that person telling him I thought I made a mistake. He said I made no mistake I was only asking him what had happened the night before. As I got to the point of being hysterical I just said thanks gotta go. About five minutes later Nate called back much calmer and apologized and started telling me what had gone on the night before. I was numb from the first conversation and really couldn't even speak to him. I told him I was sorry he had a bad night and I had to go. He asked me to stop crying I said ok and he said promise I said ok gotta go. I haven't stopped since then. Today is one of  those days you wish you had slept all day.