Looking Up

Okay so here we are....Nathanael has made some progress in the fact that on Christmas Day we had a family visit and we got through it without any episodes. I'm keeping relatively calm about this because before when we seemed to take amazing steps forward., we always ended up double the steps backward. I haven't written in a couple of weeks because nothing seemed to change. We would take Nathanael out for "on the ground" passes that always ended with an episode. The past one being last week, we got almost through the pass and as we got to the elevator Nathanael had an episode. Poor kid. This one seeming to be the longest of them all. The one good thing about this past episode was he was out longer than usual but didn't wake up in turmoil. Whew.. Much better. Now we are talking about what happens if Nathanael can't make the transition to home. I have to say the options in my eyes are not good. We are talking long term residential placements. This I'm not looking forward too. Our visit yesterday is giving me a little more hope that maybe this is just another bump in the road that as a family we will get over and someday look back and say remember when.... My fingers are crossed.